Yesterday was great.

I spent quality alone time with my honey to celebrate our anniversary...good food, good conversation...a lot of reminiscing about our past and daydreaming and planning our future.

I still cannot believe we've been together so long....

"Looking back on my life, one thing is clear-
The worthwhile part has been spent with you"

Two years (actually almost six all together, long story! ) have come and gone so quickly...Parang kailan lang...

We've been thru so much...getting together, breaking up and getting back together again... I've learned so much with and because of him. The past two years have been smooth sailing for us, unlike the rocky almost four years of the first stage of our relationship.

Bottom line: Jess is the center of our relationship and that makes all the difference.

Needless to say, looking back at our past has shown me that I would like nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with him. *sigh*

The last month has been hellish.

Have been too tired to update.

Need to relax.

It is finished!

My 1-month hell on earth is done...

Or at least till my new hell begins again on August 5...

Today, in the middle of all the stress (and mess of the general vicinity of my desk), I suddenly lifted my arms and shouted out, "PARA SA IYO LORD!" My tita (our company's PR consultant) practically stopped in her tracks. (As in nagulat talaga siya! ) After recovering from the surprise of my outburst, she commented that it was a good attitude to have about work and ultimately, about life.

I am stressed beyond belief. My workload has been tough the last few weeks with all the events and deadlines, that time for myself, my family and Carlo was practically non-existent.

Kinaya ko lahat-lahat. Admittedly, I was on the verge of giving up several times over the last few days. I was constnatly thinking of whether all the stress, fatigue, sleepless nights & skipped meals was still worth keeping this job.

My job does not help the country, the poor, homeless, sick and dying. It does not provide jobs or help augment the budget deficit.
At the very least, it helps promote Philippine art abroad and provide a service for buyers and sellers of art & antiques in the Philippines as well as around the world.

It is not a job that I will be staying in forever but the last three years have opened my eyes to so much. I am a better person because of this job and so many people I've met because of it have touched my life.

My sister mentioned how I try to find one person to touch my life each day CORRECTION: I try to find at least one person. I am lucky to have several each day with my constants being Mom, Mikko, Tums and Carlo.

My job in itself can sometimes be a TRIAL. But more than that, what I've learned and continue to learn is a TRIUMPH that I lift up to Him.

PARA SA IYO KUYA JESS ANG LAHAT NA PINAGDADAANAN KO...

Ballet shoes- beautiful, graceful, and creative,
you enjoy dancing writing and music. You are
often very poetic and sometimes dramatic. Even
if dancing isn't your thing, you are still very
creative. You keep to yourself aside from a few
close friends that you can relate to. You find
your own ways to express yourself and don't
have a need to br surrounded by tons of people.
A small group of friends is fine. [please vote!
thank you! ]


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I'm so into ballet again now because of the beautiful painting that I bought.

Super dami kuwento. I can't believe that I haven't updated in so long. Work stress has been nearly too much for me-I AM SO TIRED!

Konting tiis na lang, I'll be okay after the 23rd...

Trip lang. My boss is back and I'm waiting for her to call me back. Is it obvious that I'm bored?

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For the past three weekends, I've been going to various days weekends-UST, ctk & Hyssop.

As always, because of days, (specifically JESS) I feel fulfilled, happy & content. This past week, I was really harassed but JESS is like an UPPER=addicting...so I'm super recharged...

Days-wise, last weekend was no exception.

Hyssop 13 was, in a word, uplifting. It was so good to see another batch of participants (My, Aurea, Felice, Heather, Frances, Tin, Nina, Daisy, Meanne, and Loraine) touched by Him. The core (Tonie, Candice, Mel & Ninna) worked hard and successfully introduced Jess to the participants. The staffers (especially the True Light-Hanna, Mell, Chenelle, Timmy, Nina and Carissa and ctk dazers/staff-Pat, Gianna, Tums, Kathrine, Miguel, Omar, Kritzia, Haydee, Welo, Mikko, and Carlo) were ready and willing to serve. I have to say this: I'm proud of US. Proud that hindi tayo napapagod sa kaka-SERVE kay Jess even if tatlong linggo na sunod-sunod ang batches.

I was particularly inspired and impressed by Ynez. A few of us bonded while waiting for the Saturday night activities and because of our chikkas, I discovered a side of her that I didn't know about previously.

Likewise, the bball clinic was a big success. All the vital ingredients for a good outreach program were there...nice venue, free food, super cool volunteers...the experience was fulfilling, even if the time
was bitin and the kids were semi out-of-control

It was a terrific weekend. The best days weekend ctk ever had...I am so proud and honored to have been a part of it.

I was so happy that my ctk 02 kids (Richard, Denise, Reggie, Ynez, Macky, Glenn, Obert & Marielle) were there to support the core, especially Lari & Migs.

I was also happy because of how ganado the true light 1 dazers (Timmy, Mela, Theresa, Nina, Loi, Christine, Kina) were in serving the participants. Nakakataba ng puso.

I am especially proud of my true light 2 stars (Hanna, Chenelle, Mell, Ruby, Bianca, Carissa, Tessa, Pauline, Maica) because even if it was just a month after their own days, they were sobrang high pa rin and they showed concretely Jess' love to the participants in how they served.

I also fell more in love with Kritzia, Gisa, Rianna, and Gianna. The four of you shine brightest when you give of yourselves in the way that you do.

Lastly, I am proudest of my sister. She was and never will be in my shadow. I resent that comment from the last person it should have come from. Tums was and is a big part of what inspires me to serve. Her child-like way of loving touched me so much. She loves in the best way possible-humble, selfless, simple.


Every day, I try to find at least one person to inspire me, a concrete manifestaton of Jess in even just one person who touches my life for each day that passes. Last weekend, I was lucky, no, I was blessed to have several.

Needless to say, I am rejuvenated, refreshed and recharged to continue what I've set out to do.

Jess, You are my greatest inspiration. I continue to give myself to you.

9 years.

There is a marked difference between loving and being in love. I'm both. I love and I'm in love with Him.

I've experienced 9 beautiful years of being in a relationship that is beautiful but complex. I am more in love than ever. I have never felt so loved, valued and appreciated. He fills me with so much joy and contentment. He makes me feel special, complete.

I haven't been as loyal as He has been to me. I've often strayed and often have I said "Ayoko na." Still, we're here at this point where there's honesty, trust and a bond so strong that my flaws, weaknesses and insecurities are compensated by and because of His love.

Thank you for loving me, for being there through everything.
I love you, Jess, I love you so much. Basta Ikaw!

I am going to be ok.

Like I said, in the end, I will always go back to my commitment. In as much as tanggap lang ng tanggap applies to this situation, I will go beyond it. I will transcend the negative emotions that the situation is eliciting. I will see past myself and what I'm feeling and turn to Jess for comfort, solace and most of all, strength.

I'm thankful for my friends: my angels, stars and rainbows. I'm recovering from so much pain and trauma, facing so many fears and conquering so many obstacles. I've always known that I'm not alone and never will be alone. I have people who continue to touch my life with every interaction, who allow me to soar above and beyond each trial that is thrown at me.

It was a weekend fraught with so much drama.

I will be okay though. I promise.